Wednesday, April 1, 2020

Waiting on Wednesday #442

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.

TRUEL1F3 (Lifel1k3 #3) BY JAY KRISTOFF

Goodreads Description:

From the bestselling co-author of the Illuminae Files comes the thrilling finale in the LIFEL1K3 trilogy--hailed by Marie Lu as "a breathless, action-packed exploration of what humanity really means."

Best friends have become enemies. Lovers have become strangers. And deciding whose side you're on could be the difference between life and death. For Eve and Lemon, discovering the truth about themselves--and each other--was too much for their friendship to take. But with the country on the brink of a new world war--this time between the BioMaas swarm at CityHive and Daedalus's army at Megopolis, loyalties will be pushed to the brink, unlikely alliances will form and with them, betrayals. But the threat doesn't stop there, because the lifelikes are determined to access the program that will set every robot free, a task requiring both Eve and Ana, the girl she was created to replace. In the end, violent clashes and heartbreaking choices reveal the true heroes . . . and they may not be who you think they are.


Hardcover, 480 pages
Expected publication: June 30th 2020 by Alfred A. Knopf Books for Young Readers
Pre-Order here and here

I shall be honest and say that I am beyond nervous about this final book. Aaack. So nervous, that I have not even read book two yet, haha. I adore Jay. I love his books. But I am still a little mad at him for what he did to the Nevernight sequels. Sigh. Which is also why I'm so nervous about this one, haha. I LOVED LIFEL1K3. So so so much. But how it ended made me so confused about what I wanted the third book to end like, haha. And so I am even more nervous now. I haven't read book two. But I have peeked, so, you know, even more nervous. Ha. But also so very excited. I cannot wait for this third book to come out, so that I can finally re-read book one, so I can read book two too :D I just can't wait. So nervous. So excited.
What are you waiting for on this true Wednesday?

Saturday, March 28, 2020

In My Mailbox #438

Gosh. I still haven't read anything. Ugh. I have had my next read next to me for a few weeks now. And I want to read this book a whole lot. But I just have not felt like reading at all. Which so completely sucks. I simply do not have any energy left. My stomach is still bad every day and it sucks so bad. And cannot get medicine either, since it isn't safe to travel to the hospital. Rude. I'm also so worried about the world right now. This Corona thing is the very very worst and I am so worried about when it will arrive in my town, if we will all survive it. Shudders. So, yeah. This might also be why I haven't felt like reading lately. Positive side, I bought Animal Crossing this week. So I have been playing that every day, which makes my days brighter. It's so good. Also, only one blog post this week, sigh. As I haven't been able to do things on my laptop at all. It still hurts my wrist to use my laptop mouse. I keep waiting for it to pass, but the pain never goes away. Ugh. So rude. Anyway. This week I am waiting on The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue :) I hope you are all staying safe and at home and are all doing good. <3 I'm all kinds of tired of staying home, ack.


Chain of Gold. UK paperback edition has arrived :D Which is fully gorgeous. So very excited for this book.
Kingsbane. Eee. US paperback editions are here :D This book is so so perfect. <3 Sigh. I love this cover.
Animal Crossing. Gosh. I could not help but buy this game :D And I am loving it soso very much. Sigh. <3


More Instagram photos here. <3

Wednesday, March 25, 2020

Waiting on Wednesday #441

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.

THE INVISIBLE LIFE OF ADDIE LARUE BY V. E. SCHWAB

Goodreads Description:

A Life No One Will Remember. A Story You Will Never Forget.

France, 1714: in a moment of desperation, a young woman makes a Faustian bargain to live forever and is cursed to be forgotten by everyone she meets.

Thus begins the extraordinary life of Addie LaRue, and a dazzling adventure that will play out across centuries and continents, across history and art, as a young woman learns how far she will go to leave her mark on the world.

But everything changes when, after nearly 300 years, Addie stumbles across a young man in a hidden bookstore and he remembers her name.

 
Hardcover, 464 pages
Expected publication: October 6th 2020 by Tor Books
Pre-Order here and here

I am beyond excited for this book :D Eee. Have seen Victoria tweet about it for years now. I have waited that long for it too, haha. It sounds so good and so different too and I simply cannot wait to read this book. It shall be so good. Sigh. I'm also so excited and hopeful for some awesome romance, haha :) Can't wait.
What are you waiting for on this invisible Wednesday?

Saturday, March 21, 2020

In My Mailbox #437

This week I haven't read anything new. Ack. I have my next book planned, just need energy to actually start it. Oops. I'm hoping to get to it in a few days. My health just completely sucks. I am starting to get better from the flu. Or I might have had Corona. Who knows. Tried to get tested, they would not let me. Doctor said I might have it, I might not have it, and he hoped I had it, so I would be done with it. Hahaha. Yeah. So trying to stay positive. In pain so often and so much and so goddamn tired of it. I'm a little better today, so hoping it is finally improving. Only one new blog post, oops. This week I'm waiting on The Other Side of the Sky. <3 But got a little bit of gorgeous mail this week :) I'm trying to do my best. I am hoping to read shortly. Hoping to take new instagram photos. I'm so behind. Sigh. But doing my best, yeah :) Hope you are all staying safe. The world is such a shitty place these days. Hoping this virus will be done soon.



Chain of Gold. Eee! My personalized book box from GCReading has arrived :D And it is gorgeous. Love.
The Alcazar. I liked the first book a lot. And so I am hoping that this sequel will end up being amazing :)
The Shadows Between Us Swag. Eee! Thank you so much Tricia for this lovely pre-order swag :D Love.


More Instagram photos here. <3

Wednesday, March 18, 2020

Waiting on Wednesday #440

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.

THE OTHER SIDE OF THE SKY
BY AMIE KAUFMAN & MEAGAN SPOONER


Goodreads Description:

Prince North’s home is in the sky, in a gleaming city held aloft by intricate engines powered by technology. Nimh is the living goddess of her people on the surface, responsible for providing answers, direction—hope.

Linked by a terrifying prophecy and caught between duty and fate, they must choose between saving their people or succumbing to the bond that is forbidden between them.

Magnetic and gorgeously thematic, New York Times bestselling author duo Amie Kaufman and Meagan Spooner have crafted a gripping tale of magic and logic, fate and choice, and an impossible decision between an empty future and a deadly love. Perfect for fans of Claudia Gray and Laini Taylor.


Hardcover, 480 pages
Expected publication: September 8th 2020 by HarperTeen
Pre-Order here and here

Eee! I simply cannot wait to read this book :D Amie and Meagan write such great books together. And this new one sounds beyond incredible. It looks so very gorgeous. And I adore the characters already. Sigh. I just can't wait to get to know these characters and this world. It's all going to be so very perfect.
What are you waiting for on this gleaming Wednesday?

Saturday, March 14, 2020

In My Mailbox #436

Well. I didn't think I could be in more pain than what I'm already in with my stomach. This week it proved to be wrong, twice. Ha. I first got this intense neck pain that lasted for over three days. It hurt to sit still, it hurt to move. It hurt even more to swallow. It was so bad. But thankfully better now. Instead I got a high fever yesterday and today. Haaa. Yeah. I'm coughing and feeling feverish and feeling so cold and so sick. It is the worst. Especially since I'm worried it might be Corona. Ugh. But it isn't in my town yet. Well, that's what they think, anyway. It's spreading so fast in Norway. Everything has been shut down. It's weird. But good, I suppose. Anyway. Hoping I just have the flu. If it doesn't get better tomorrow I will have to call the doctor. Rude. Supposed to go to the hospital this coming week. Nervous. Hoping it will be safe. Anyway. One book read this week, as that was all I had energy for. But it was good. <3 Got some new gorgeous books too, eee. Many pre-orders, haha. Two new blog posts. This week I'm waiting on Among the Beasts and Briars :D And I shared my review of The Midnight Lie, eee. <3 I hope that you are all staying safe :)


Chain of Gold. Ahh! Look at these gorgeous editions :D LOVE! So excited for this. More to come, haha.
Winter. Since my original copy had an ugly pen mark on the white cover, I got a new one sent. <3 Love.
The Midnight Lie. Eee! UK and US hardcover edition :D This book was so very good. And very gorgeous.
The Kingdom of Back. I cannot wait to read this book very soon :D It looks stunning and sounds so good.
The June Boys. Eee! Reading this one very shortly too, and I cannot wait. It sounds so good and exciting.


More Instagram photos here. <3

Wednesday, March 11, 2020

Review: The Midnight Lie by Marie Rutkoski

I have been excited about this book ever since it was announced. The original trilogy was the very best and I have loved re-reading the books so very much. Learning that this book would be set in the same world, not far after, was the best thing. And of course to finally get a new story by Marie. Her writing is beyond incredible.

And so I was thrilled about finally reading this book. And I am so happy to say that I did love it. I adored the characters. The kind of new world was so exciting to get to know too. The writing was so gorgeous. And the romance was truly good and precious. I had a few very small issues, which is why this one is a four star for me.

But this does not mean that I did not love this. Because I did. And very much so. Will share my issues, but first share all the reasons for why I adored this book so. It takes place around twenty years after the end of The Winner's Kiss. But it takes place on a whole new island. Getting to know this place was every kind of exciting and interesting. As it was so different from where Arin and Kestrel came from. This is told from the point of view of nineteen year old Nirrim. A girl whom I adored beyond words. She was loving and kind and brave. But also too trusting and unable to see certain things clearly. Which made my heart hurt. But gosh, I adored her so much. She has a gift of memory. Nirrim cannot forget anything. She remembers being born. She remembers every detail.

Getting to know Nirrim was the best. But also the worst, because of the life she had. My heart hurt for her. But despite not having much, she was still okay with what she did have. A few friends. Someone that she looked at as her mother. A home. But it was not as simple as that. On Nirrim's island all the people were divided into three. The half kith, the middling, the high kith. Nirrim was a half kith, living in the poor part of city. Never allowed to leave her place, having to live by a whole lot of rules and punishments for breaking.

I very much liked reading about how this city was. It was so evil and cruel and so interesting to read about at the same time. I loved getting to read from Nirrim's point of view. This book begins with Nirrim finding a lost bird, and returning it to the milita. Who ends up arresting her. She is sentenced to a month of jail and tithed with having her blood drawn once each day for that month. Which was a way too harsh sentence, when she had done nothing wrong. Well, except that she killed a man, but no one knew that. Only Nirrim.

There is so much going on in this book. Learning about the half kith, how poor they were and all the rules they had to live by. They couldn't wear colors. They couldn't eat sweet things. They were encouraged to make more children. They were attacked at times, their children taken from them. It was not a life worth living. Which was fully heartbreaking to read about. The middling could visit the poor and the rich, living between them, in a life mostly good. At least a whole lot better than where the half kith were made to live.

Then there were the high kith. The rich people of this island. They had everything. Could buy everything. This book had magic, small pieces of it. The rich had drinks with magic that made them behave different. Changed their looks for a while, gave them happiness. But these rich people were not kind people. They did not help the poor beyond the wall. They cared only for themselves. We learn very much about these different types of people in this book. And there is so much still to know. And I cannot wait to learn it all.

But this story was about Nirrim. About Nirrim and Sid. A woman that she meets in prison. Whom she first believes to be a man, because of her short hair and her men's clothes. Sid get her out of prison after only three days. Because Sid is not like Nirrim. She acts like she is high kith. People believe she is. But she is not from this place. She is a traveler. We only get to know her personally a little, but to me it was obvious who she was. Which I loved. I also very much adored Sid. She was all kinds of fierce and full of trouble.

Nirrim and Sid starts an unlikely friendship. I very much enjoyed reading about them getting to know each other. They are both fierce and they both know what they want. Sid enjoys telling lies and doing what she wants. But she can also be honest and so sweet. The romance in this book is gay. And it was all kinds of fantastic. Nirrim and Sid fit together really well and I adored them so. This romance have many problems to face too, of course. And I am so nervous and worried about it. But yes. I shipped them so very much.

The reason for why I am giving this book four stars is because of the mentions of Arin and Kestrel. Well, they are only somewhat mentioned. They are made to seem like horrible people, twenty years later. And that only breaks my heart. They are made to sound cruel and not kind at all. Which is not what I wanted. But. I'm hoping it will be made better in book two. Though it could also be worse, because of the ending. Gosh. I hope not. I also found the book to be slow; nothing really happened. But I did not really mind that.

The Midnight Lie was pretty much perfect. I adored the characters and I loved the world. The writing was gorgeous, as always. The story was pretty excellent too. The ending was way too rude, though. And now I simply cannot wait for book two. I'm sure it will be all kinds of amazing. You should all read this book too. You do not have to read The Winner's Curse trilogy first, but you really should, as those books are so fully good too. This book stands alone. But even better together. And I am so thrilled to have read and loved it.


Waiting on Wednesday #439

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.

AMONG THE BEASTS AND BRIARS BY ASHLEY POSTON

Goodreads Description:

Cerys is safe in the kingdom of Aloriya.

Here there are no droughts, disease, or famine, and peace is everlasting. It has been this way for hundreds of years, since the first king made a bargain with the Lady who ruled the forest that borders the kingdom. But as Aloriya prospered, the woods grew dark, cursed, and forbidden. Cerys knows this all too well: when she was young, she barely escaped as the woods killed her friends and her mother. Now Cerys carries a small bit of the curse—the magic—in her blood, a reminder of the day she lost everything. The most danger she faces now, as a gardener’s daughter, is the annoying fox who stalks the royal gardens and won’t leave her alone.

As a new queen is crowned, however, things long hidden in the woods descend on the kingdom itself. Cerys is forced on the run, her only companions the small fox from the garden, a strange and powerful bear, and the magic in her veins. It’s up to her to find the legendary Lady of the Wilds and beg for a way to save her home. But the road is darker and more dangerous than she knows, and as secrets from the past are uncovered amid the teeth and roots of the forest, it’s going to take everything she has just to survive.


Hardcover, 352 pages
Expected publication: October 20th 2020 by Balzer + Bray
Pre-Order here and here

This book sounds all kinds of exciting and thrilling. Eee. And I just cannot wait to read it. It also looks so gorgeous. I am pretty sure that I am going to love this book so much. It sounds so good. Hoping it will be up soon on Edelweiss, eee, so I can read it as soon as possible, haha :D Just can't wait for it. So excited.
What are you waiting for on this cursed Wednesday?

Saturday, March 7, 2020

In My Mailbox #435

Eee. This week has been the best reading week. I finally decided to re-read The Winner's Curse trilogy. And so I read all three books this week. And I love them the most, still. Maybe even more this time. This series is so good. Sigh. I could have started The Midnight Lie tonight. But my hardcover has yet to arrive. Ugh. Will wait until Monday, hoping it gets here then. Otherwise I might start my gorgeous ARC instead, ack. But I want to read my hardcover. Ha. Anyway. Health still sucks the most, nothing is better. Trying to survive it. Now also beyond worried about the Corona virus too, as it would not be good for me at all if I got it. Aack. But fingers crossed it does not get to my town. Gosh. Anyway. A little bit of mail; all precious. <3 And some new blog posts too, eee. I shared my review of The Light in Hidden Places :D I shared my fifth review of The Winner's Curse. <3 This week I'm waiting on You Were Never Here :) I shared my third review of The Winner's Crime :D And my second review of The Winner's Kiss. <3 Sigh. So much love. So yeah. I'm trying to be doing my best :) Stomach sucks every day for hours. But I have still been reading. So happy I'm finally reading again. <3 So far behind on everything, still, though, lol. Catching up soon :)


Invictus. Eee! Thank you so much to Jamie-Lee for trading this gorgeous UK ARC with me :D I love it so.
His Dark Materials. Ahh. UK series edition with four art cards. <3 Haven't seen the show yet. Oops. Soon.
The Kingdom of Back. EEE! Thank you so much PRH International #partner for this gorgeous free book with stunning swag too. I am so excited about this book. And will be reading it very soon. I cannot wait :)
Pop figure. Only one new pop this week, ha. I get too many of them. Oops. But had to. Love Cinderella.


More Instagram photos here. <3

Review: The Winner's Kiss by Marie Rutkoski

I had forgotten how extremely good this final book was. I mean, I remember loving it most of them all. I remember some parts. But I had forgotten many details. I had forgotten how heartbreaking it was, yet so full of hope too and how everything was as I wanted. Sigh. This one was simply perfection. I loved it all so very much.

The writing was stunning, of course. This story was even more exciting than the previous books. The characters more precious than ever. And the romance was full focus and beyond adorable. This book brought me so much joy. Sure, some pain, but the joy meant too much for me to even notice most of the painful parts.

There is much I could share about this book. But my mind feels empty of words. My heart is too full of love for this most perfect book. Sigh. I can't believe that I had forgotten so much of it. But then, it has been four years since I first read it, and this being my second read. I will not let it go this many years again before I re-read this trilogy. It is worth all the pain. Because this ending was truly worth it. I have to admit that the first parts of the book were my favorite. It was the parts that hurt the most, of course, but the feelings that Arin had about it made me so happy. Okay, it was heartbreaking to read about how sad he was, all the regret he felt. But I was so so glad to see it. I was happy that he felt regret and anger at himself. It simply made me love him even more.

This third book takes place after Kestrel has been sent to prison for treason. After her own father turned her in. Arin and his people are at war against the Empire. He does not know what Kestrel did for him. He does not know that she went to prison for him. He only remembers her lies, that Kestrel did not want him. When that was so wrong, that she wanted him most, and did everything for him. It was so beyond sad to read about the beginning of this book, how Arin tried to forget her. How Kestrel tried and failed to escape.

But then came the pages were Arin learned that Kestrel had been the Moth. That she had been captured and taken to the most horrible prison there was. He went to find her. But it had been a whole month. She had been there so long. Getting drugs every morning and night. She had forgotten herself. Had forgotten Arin. And this is what I loved most. How Arin tried his best to care for her. How much regret Arin felt, how sad and angry he was. It was the best. Then there was Kestrel. Gosh. I loved this girl more than anything.

She spends most of this book not remembering most of her life. Not knowing herself or Arin or her father. We get to see her remember some parts. How it breaks her. We get to see Arin try his best to take care of her. We get to see her slowly getting to know him again, as well as herself. It was so sad to read about at times, but my gosh, how thrilling and good it was too. Arin and Kestrel are together, well, somewhat. At least they are not apart any more. They get to know each other. And it was the very very best thing. Eee.

It might be mean of me, but gosh, how I loved how broken they both were. Arin and how he felt he could never be loved. Kestrel and how she felt she would never know herself again, unsure if she loved Arin or not. They were both broken so badly. And they fit together so well. Their romance did take some time to happen, but that time was not spent badly. And when they finally got together it was everything. I loved them so much. Sigh. I just loved the romance in this book the very most, haha. It was the most precious.

But this book was not all about the romance. There was more of Sarsine, whom I adored so much. There was more of Roshar, whom I also loved the most. His sister, the Queen, not so much. Hmph. But Roshar was the best. And his friendship with Arin was so good and special. There was the war. A whole lot of it. Many died. But it was also so interesting to read about and written so well too. Then there was Kestrel's father. I loved him, once. I hated him in this one. But also thought his ending was good. Curious for more.

The Winner's Kiss was everything I could have wanted from a final book. It was everything I had wished for. I'm not sure I have ever read a more perfect final book. Sigh. You are for real missing out on the very best trilogy if you haven't read these books yet. They are so worth it. I am thrilled that I finally read these books again. They hurt me, but they healed me too. And this final book was the best of them. This story of Kestrel and Arin was everything I could have wanted it to be. The most precious thing. Loved them so.


Thursday, March 5, 2020

Review: The Winner's Crime by Marie Rutkoski

Reading this book again broke me. I knew it would be painful to read it. But I also knew I would still love it to pieces. Which I did. But it hurt so badly. This book was the worst. Yet I adored every moment of it. Parts of it still made me so angry and hurt. It was so good too, although my heart broke again and again. So rude.

The writing was, as always, perfection. I love the characters the very most. The setting was so great. I  love getting to know more about this world. This book mostly takes place at court, with balls and events at all times. It was very interesting and so painful too. This book completely ruined me. I loved it tons, because of that.

There is so much I could share about this book. But I will not be sharing too much, because my heart is too broken right now. I'm also very excited to re-read The Winner's Kiss next. I remember loving that one even more and I simply can't wait to read it again. I know it will hurt. But the worst of the pain is over now, at least for me. And so I'm beyond excited to get started on that one. I'm having trouble finding the words to describe how much this book means to me. It hurt me so very much. It had a bunch of things that just hurt and hurt and hurt. Yet I loved it so. I adored Kestrel the very most and she was so broken yet strong in this that I loved her even more. I was upset with Arin a lot of the time, ha, but I also could not blame him one bit. Still love him so much too.

In this book, Kestrel is engaged to the Emperor's son. She is living in the capital, at court. Her whole life has to be kept secret. She cannot show her fears or her real feelings about anything. And she cannot let Arin know that the only reason she is marrying this person was to save his life. This book was so so sad. And it hurts to think about it. But it was so important too. It shows how badly Kestrel loves Arin. How she did everything for him, without ever letting him know, to keep him safe. At least, she tried her best for him.

It is a book about how these two people who love each other but cannot be together. Arin is no longer a slave. His country has been freed. But it does not feel like it. It feels like the Emperor has plans for Arin's people, and not any good ones. It's a story about how Kestrel tries her hardest to survive with herself and with trying to help people in the only way she can. She somewhat becomes a spy. It doesn't end well. But she is trying. And trying not to get caught, which would be death. Kestrel was not the best at being subtle.

I do not know what to say about this book. I have no words for all of it. It made me hurt so. Kestrel had to keep so many secrets from Arin. She hurt him a lot. But he hurt her too. He did not see through her lies. I wish he had realized what she was doing, that he had helped her. But it was impossible. And that is also what made this book so good. Kestrel went through a lot. As did Arin. And they had to go through all of it alone. Which hurt even more. But I loved it too. But gosh, I need these two precious characters together.

There is so much I could say about this book. Yet I still do not have the words. It was so painful. It was so excellent. It hurt my heart to read about Kestrel and Jess, how hurt she was, how she gave up on Kestrel. It hurt so much. We got to know a few new characters. Like the son of the Emperor. Whom I grew to love. There were no feelings between him and Kestrel. But they grew to be friends. And I liked him tons. Sigh. Then the ending happened. And it broke me even more. So horrible and so very well done. Loved it most.

The Winner's Crime is a must read sequel. It is heartbreaking and all kinds of epic. There are moments of romance. But more moments of pain and sadness. It was every kind of perfect. So painful. So good. This whole series is perfection and you all need to read these books too. I cannot wait to read more books by Marie. She's amazing. Reading the story of Kestrel and Arin is the very best. And I can't wait to read how it ends once more. Although I never want their story to actually end for real, haha. I love them too much.


Wednesday, March 4, 2020

Waiting on Wednesday #438

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.

YOU WERE NEVER HERE BY KATHLEEN PEACOCK

Goodreads Description:

Cat hasn’t been to Montgomery Falls, the town her family founded, since she was twelve years old. Since the summer she discovered she could do things that no normal twelve-year-old could do. Since she had her first kiss with Riley Fraser. Since she destroyed their friendship.

Now, five years later, she’s back and Riley has disappeared.

For the last three months no one has heard from or seen Riley. And while there are all sorts of conspiracy theories about where he went, neither the police nor his parents are any closer to finding him. When Noah, Riley’s brother, asks for help in discovering what happened, Cat is torn between wanting to learn the truth and protecting the secret that she’s been guarding ever since that summer she and Riley stopped speaking.

But then a girl is discovered floating in the river, barely alive with no knowledge of who attacked her or why. With the possibility that someone out there is hunting teens, Cat must make a choice: Use her unusual ability to discover the truth and find Riley or keep running away from a power she can’t control. Only one choice will put her in a killer’s sights…


Hardcover, 400 pages
Expected publication: October 20th 2020 by HarperTeen
Pre-Order here and here

Eee! I am SO excited for this book :D Have adored Kathleen for years now and have been waiting for a new book by her for so long, haha. And this one sounds all kinds of creepy and wonderful. Sigh. I just know that I will love this book. And I cannot wait to read it. Also, romance? I hope so :D So so excited.
What are you waiting for on this hunted Wednesday?

Tuesday, March 3, 2020

Review: The Winner's Curse by Marie Rutkoski

This has been my fifth time reading this precious book. I was a little worried this time, as it has been four years since I last read it. I had no reason to be worried. Because I still loved this book with every part of my heart. It is such a gorgeous story. Beyond heartbreaking and awful. But so beautiful and well written. Sigh.

There is simply so much I love about this book. And I am thrilled to finally be reading these books again. They meant so much to me years ago. And they still do. This first book is still every bit as perfect to me as it was before. Which makes me beyond thrilled, as I really wanted to love it just as much. It is fully gorgeous too.

I think I will not share as much about this book this time. Simply because I want to get started on re-reading book two as soon as I can, haha. And also because I'm certain I have already written many times before about how badly I love this story. But it can't hurt to write it again. So I will. The writing is of course perfection. Which I am so happy about. The setting was stunning too. It felt like a book set in the past, which is my favorite. The way things were in this city was so interesting but so horrible too. Kestrel and her people had won the war ten years ago over this city. The people who lived there before either killed or taken as slaves. Which was horrible to read about. Even though it was awful to read, I always wanted to know more about the history of it all.

This book tells the story about Kestrel and Arin. She is the general's daughter. He is a slave she ends up bidding way too much for at an auction. We learn so much about both of them. And I loved them both to pieces. Kestrel was so strong and brave yet so broken at times too. I loved how she fought for what she wanted. I loved her friendship with Jess and Ronan. I loved her relationship with her dad. I loved her love for music. Simply put, I loved this girl the very most. Which might be why this book hurt me so badly too.

And I also loved Arin the most. Though his lies at times hurt my heart even more. Ha. But I understood him so well, his want for freedom, being willing to do anything to get it again. He does not like Kestrel at first. But she starts to grow on him. And I so loved how they started getting close, despite how they kept hurting each other too. Oh. I also very much loved getting to know Arin. He had been a slave for ten long years, his family killed all those years ago. He was broken. But so strong and loving too. I adored him so.

There is so much that I liked about this book. I could never write it all down. And not sharing much about the plot either. This story was about Arin and Kestrel. About how they fall for each other despite how very different their lives are. How things change around them. I adored them so. The story was pretty epic too. I liked reading about all of it. I liked learning about the history of both people. I enjoyed learning about the war, though I wish it had never been. I liked the dresses and dances. I fully loved every part of this book.

Of course, what I love most about this book is the romance. Arin and Kestrel are so different. He a slave, she the one he paid for him. Until the slaves take over the city again. Until they take back their freedom. Then Arin is the one in charge and Kestrel is the one captive. This whole book was such a mess for their relationship. There was no way they could actually be together. Yet they want it, slowly. And it is so very painfully good to read about. Sigh. I shipped them so. I loved them so. And it hurt so very much. So rude.

If you still have not read The Winner's Curse you are missing out on the most beautiful and heartbreaking story. This book still means so much to me. It will never fail to break my heart. It will never fail to heal it as well. The romance hurt so badly but I ship them so much, because they are so perfect together. Sigh. It is a book everyone must read. Multiple times, like I have. It is a story that will never grow old. I'm so beyond excited to re-read the rest of the trilogy. And then read The Midnight Lie too. I can't wait. It will be perfect.


Saturday, February 29, 2020

Review: The Light in Hidden Places by Sharon Cameron

This was such a powerful and heartbreaking story. I loved every moment of it. I knew I would love this book. As I have read and loved books by this author before and as it sounded fully perfect to me. Of course, fully evil and heartbreaking. But I knew it would be that. And I also knew I would love this story the most. So I did.

There is so much to share about this book. I know I will forget to share a lot of it. But I will share how much I loved this story. How much I adored the characters. How much I hated what happened to so many during this war. How much it broke my heart but how this story healed it a bit too. Five stars for this most precious one.

This book is set in Poland during World War II. It tells the story of young Stefania. A Catholic girl who has spent the past few years working for this very lovely Jewish family at their store. She have worked her way into their hearts, and them into her heart. We get to know a little about them all and I simply adored the Diamants. I loved how Fusia felt right at home with all of them. But then the bombs arrive. The war has come to town. The Germans arrives. And everything goes wrong. It takes some time for Fusia to believe all the horrible stuff that is happening to Jews in her town. She does not truly get it until it happens to her found family. This whole story was so heartbreaking. Beyond sad and real and it hurt my heart most of the time. But interesting and exciting too.

We get to know Fusia a whole lot. A little bit about her family, whom she left behind to go work in a bigger city for the Diamant family store. Her life is good. She is secretly engaged to one of the young men in the family, Izio. Getting to know this family was the best. But also the worst, as I knew what was coming when the war arrived. Izio and his brothers left town for a while. But came back again, as there was nowhere to go. At first nothing happened for a while, after the bombs. But then the Diamant family is forced to move.

They were forced to leave their apartment and their store, forced to leave all their belongings, and go live in a fenced in ghetto with all the others Jews in their town. It was so horrible to read about. This book is from Fusia's point of view. She is safe from the army, the enemy. But not really. Because she is not okay with leaving her family to starve and maybe die in an awful place. She tries to help them as best as she can. She sneaks them food. But it is not enough. And it is not safe for her to do this any of this, not at all.

And then she also ends up having to care for her little sister, Helena, whom is only six. She doesn't know what to do in a lot of this book. But she does something even so. She helps anyway that she can. She try to help Izio escape from a different work camp he got sent to. But this goes wrong and he ends up dead. Which was so sad to read about, as she did love him. But she slowly gets past that. Because there is so much she needs to focus on. How to not starve and freeze. How to get a job, how to keep her sister safe.

It is about her relationship to her Jewish found family. About what happens to all of them. And how Izio's brother, Max, need her help. How he does not want to die too. And so he begs her to hide him. To let him live with her and her sister. And to have her hide more than him as well. Fusia spends a little time thinking about it. But she cannot refuse. She has to help. And I loved her for that. Helping meant death if anyone knew. The German army hurt the Jews in this story so badly. And Fusia did everything she could to help.

Which is what this book is about. It is about Fusia trying to help Max and others. It ends up with her hiding thirteen Jews in a very small attic. It was beyond dangerous. And it was beyond thrilling to read about too. They were all so brave and had to go through so much. I loved getting to know Max. I loved how he and Fusia started to get closer over time. It was adorable. But this book was mostly about survival. Trying to survive the very worst war, being afraid at all times. It was an epic story about one girl and her big heart.

This book is filled with awful things. Fusia witness a lot of bad things happening. There are a lot of death. And it was all so beyond real. Because this war truly happened. This book is even based on a true story. Stefania was a real person. And what she did was real. Which made reading this book even more painful, knowing it had all happened to someone. I have not read about the real Fusia, not yet, but I will. This war was the worst thing to ever happen to humans. And I hope beyond everything that it won't happen again.

There was so much I loved about this book. I loved how strong and brave and loving Fusia was. I adored her relationship with her little sister. And I loved how brave she was too. I so completely loved Max. Then there was the setting of this story. It was beyond heartbreaking. But so very good too. The Light in Hidden Places is such an important story. It was everything I had hoped it would be and more. Heartbreaking but hopeful too. It is a must read book. And I will say that I loved every part of this book. It was so very good.


In My Mailbox #434

Hello. I keep waiting for my stomach to get better. It hasn't. It gets worse. And I am getting worse. And I am not approving at all. Sigh. Trying to survive this, ha. But it is hard. I managed to read two books this week, though, so yay for that. Though second review is going up tonight, after I write it, as I just finished the book. Anyway. My head is killing me. My stomach is killing me. My bumps are killing me. Not doing so well. But I'm trying. No time to catch up any, though. Sigh. Soon, I hope. I simply have no energy. Trying to do what I can when I'm able to. A couple of new blog posts. I shared my review of Some Girls Are :D And this week I'm waiting on Swamp Thing. <3 I got a little bit of mail, all precious. So yeah. I hope you are all doing okay :) I'm trying my very best. Hoping health will get better soon. Ugh. It completely sucks.


The Shadows Between Us. I'm pretty excited about this. Nervous too. Sounds so good. Hope to love it.
The Light in Hidden Places. Eee! I just finished reading this one. And it was so goddamn awesome. Sigh.
Come Find Me. I completely adored this book last year. And so of course I had to own the paperback too.
Pop figures. A couple of new ones. Had to get the Vanessa little mermaid one, ha. Fairy godmother too.


More Instagram photos here. <3

Wednesday, February 26, 2020

Waiting on Wednesday #437

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.

SWAMP THING 
BY MAGGIE STIEFVATER & MORGAN BEEM

Goodreads Description:

The #1 New York Times bestselling author Maggie Stiefvater (The Raven Cycle series) and artist Morgan Beem unearth the primal power of memory and how it twists the bond between two brothers.

Twins Alec and Walker Holland have a reputation around town. One is quiet and the other is the life of any party, but they are inseparable. For their last summer before college, the two leave the city to live with their rural cousins, where they find that the swamp holds far darker depths than they could have imagined.

While Walker carves their names into the new social scene, Alec recedes into a summer school laboratory, because he brought something from home on their trip—it’s an experiment that will soon consume him. This season, both brothers must confront truths, ancient and familial, and as their lives diverge, tensions increase and dormant memories claw to the surface.

Swamp Thing: Twin Branches is a story of shadows, both literal and imagined—and those that take form and haunt us.


Paperback, 208 pages
Expected publication: October 13th 2020 by DC Comics
Pre-Order here and here

This illustrated book is going to be goddamn amazing. And I simply cannot wait to read it. Eee. Maggie is such an awesome author. And I'm thinking that Morgan is an awesome illustrator; because that cover is gorgeous. And I just cannot wait for this story. It sounds so good. Just wishing it was October already :)
What are you waiting for on this swampy Wednesday?

Tuesday, February 25, 2020

Review: Some Girls Are by Courtney Summers

This book made my heart hurt. It was such a painful story. And I loved every moment of it. I just could not stop reading this book. And I am so happy that I finally got to reading it. As it was worth every moment of my heart being in pain. This book was so real and honest. Which is why all the painful parts hurt so very badly.

Writing was stunning, which it always is with books by Courtney. Getting to know Regina pretty much killed me. She is in her last year of high school. She is a part of the fearsome fivesome. Five girls that everyone at school hates but are also too scared not to love. They are five girls that make other people hurt just for fun.

This is a story about what girls are willing to do to make each other hurt. It is a book full of pain and revenge. It is so hurtful to read at times. And I could not help but love every moment of it. I must say that the high school part of the book felt so real. How every rumor hurt. How everyone believed something if one girl said it was so. How it felt like Regina wanted to die because of how bad the bullying got. But then there was the dilemma about how to feel about her. Possible to love her and hate her. She is the victim in this one, but she was the one ruining people just before. She hurt so many, because Anna said so. She felt guilt over some of the things but that was not enough. Regina was not a nice person. And yet I loved every part of her despite all of it.

The book begins with Regina almost being raped by her best friends boyfriend. He was an awful person. And Regina is traumatized by this. She goes to one of her friends, who tell her to keep quiet about it, that her best friend wouldn't understand. Then the weekend pass. Back at school on Monday every one of her friends are freezing her out. Everyone is calling her the worst names. It turns out this friend told her best friend that Regina had slept with her boyfriend. Which was not true at all. It was so painful to read about.

Which is what this book is all about. It is about Regina being tortured at school by the girls that were her friends. Over something that didn't even happen. They do such awful things to her. And yet it is nothing that she herself hasn't done to others before this. Which is why this book is so painful. Because Regina really was not a nice person for so long. But after everyone start hating on her alone, she changes more. She becomes more aware of what she has done. Somewhat. Either way, I could not help care about her.

Then there was Michael. The loner boy she has to sit next to at lunch. The boy who is all alone because she made him so when he was new at the school. She and her friends treated him so bad back then. And now Regina needs his help to get through the day. They slowly get to know each other. He slowly start to stop hating her. And they grow to care for each other. Michael was better than anyone in this book. She may not have deserved him all the time, but gosh, how badly I shipped them and wanted them together.

This book was not easy, though. Anna and Kara make life rough for Regina. Especially once she starts hanging out with Michael. We learn so much about all of them. I loved Michael the very most. And I loved Regina too. She is so anxious and has so many issues and I loved all of her. And her story with Liz was way too heartbreaking. I may not have liked Liz, but I also did not blame her one bit. And then there was Josh. Regina's boyfriend. Who left her just like that, believing everything. Hmph. I did not like him one bit.

Although Regina had been awful, she still did not deserve everything that happened to her in this book. Ack. But so many of the characters that were hurt in this book did not deserve it. And Regina was the cause of a lot of it, because she did not dare to say no to Anna. And, well. Anna deserved all the bad things. And it never happened. I am so bitter about that, haha. Anyway. I liked this book a whole lot. I loved reading about Regina and Michael spending time together. Those moments were the very best.

Four stars because I wanted more from the ending. Half a page was not good enough for me, haha. I so wish there was more. Sigh. It was good, but it could have been even better. I wanted more from certain people. I also found the drama to be a little too much at times, and some school parts were not really for me. But I also loved parts of the drama in this book, so it wasn't that bad. But yeah. It hurt my heart. And not always in a good way. So painful. But important. It is a book about a girl trying to do better, be better.

I have now read three books by Courtney this year. And am now all caught up with her books. They have all been amazing. And very much worth reading. Her books are so painful and honest and so good. She writes the best broken girls and I adore them all. I cannot wait to read more books by Courtney. I'm sure what she is writing next will be epic. Some Girls Are was just what I wanted it to be. Painful and fantastic at the same time. If you still haven't read this book by Courtney, then you really must get started. Worth it.


Saturday, February 22, 2020

In My Mailbox #433

This week have not been easy for me at all. I thought it would be okay to take a break from my medicine. At least, that it would be okay for a few months before it got bad. But this was not the case this time. It's only been nine days since I was supposed to get more medicine. And this past week have killed me. My stomach is so bad. I'm not doing good at all. Feverish every day. I have a huge new bump in the middle of my thigh, maybe a real abscess this time. It hurts. I hope it goes away soon. Sigh. So yeah. I am not doing very well. But I'm trying. Trying to survive it, haha. And I did manage to finally make myself read a book this week, haha. So yay for that :D Hoping it will make it easier to read something else soonish too. Fingers crossed. Only two new blog posts, as I still haven't gotten myself to make cover reveal posts yet. Oh. Soon, I hope. This week I'm waiting on Blood & Honey :) And shared my review of Cracked Up to Be, eee. <3 A bit of stunning mail this week too. Sigh. I love it all :D Hope you are all well. I'm trying my best.



Eve + My True Love Gave To Me ARCs. Ahh! Thank you so much Lacy for trading with me :D So happy.
Pop figures. Eee. A whole bunch of new Mulan pop figures. And they are all goddamn gorgeous. Love.


More Instagram photos here. <3

Friday, February 21, 2020

Review: Cracked Up to Be by Courtney Summers

Another Courtney book I had been meaning to read for so long. I finally had the chance to read it. And I am so glad I did. Because this book was all kinds of good and heartbreaking. Four stars, as a few small things bothered me, but gosh, this book was good. I simply could not stop reading it. And I had to know how it ended.

Which was kind of rude, haha. I did love the ending. But it was so very bittersweet too. And it made me badly want a epilogue. Sigh. Having trouble finding the words for this book. Will share a little of what I loved about this, which was a whole lot. I found the writing to be great. The characters were so flawed I loved them all, haha.

This book tells the story of Parker. She is six months away from graduating high school. For many years she was the perfect girl. Popular, smart, behaving. Never made a mistake. Until one day she did. And she hasn't been able to really live with herself ever since that one party. And so for months now she has gotten to be the very opposite of what she had been for years. She started to drink often. Not doing her homework. Making everyone hate her. She was horrible. And still is through most of this book. Which was heartbreaking to read about. Because despite all the bad things Parker did, I still adored her. And I felt so sorry for her. Parker was not an easy girl to care for. Yet I cared for her anyway. She wanted everyone to leave her alone. She wanted to suffer.

It takes a long time before we finally learn what truly happened that day at the party a few months back. And it was such a sad story to know. But so good too. But I also wish Parker had told someone about it, long before she did. Which made me dislike her a little bit. But I also understood why she didn't tell. But yeah. It was sad. And so exciting trying to figure out what had actually happened at this party, how it had all gone wrong. Though, also, all of the drinking was a bit too much for me, as in, not really for me, haha.

This book is all about Parker and her life. It starts months after she began ruining her life. We slowly get to learn things she has done. Many of those things were so cruel of her. Yet I could not help but adore her anyway. Hmph. We learn about her past and what happened that day and how it affected her. She suffers a lot. From panic attacks and so much anxiety. Which hurt my heart. But was written well too. I did not like how she hurt her parents. But I understood her need to be alone. But oh, it was so sad at times. So rude.

Then there is a new boy in her school. And he cannot seem to stay away from her. No matter how badly she treats him. Which is very bad indeed at times. How rude. He begins having feelings for her. And they somehow start getting to know each other. When she isn't lying. All Parker wants is to be alone. Yet she kind of want to be with Jake too. And I shipped them so much, haha. There was also her ex, Chris. They had been together for years. A bit of drama, but no triangle. I liked Chris. And I really did not like him. Ha.

There is a lot going on in this story. We learn so much about Parker. And I adored her so; every broken part of her. I may have wished that she had made some different choices, but I adored her even so. And I wanted her and Jake together so badly. But I also wanted her to get help, which she badly needed. This book was kind of hard to read at times. But it is important. And I liked that a whole bunch. We get to read about Parker slowly getting better, sometimes. We get to know her life. And I honestly liked that so much.

I will say that contemporary books are usually very much not my thing. But that is so not the case when it comes to books by Courtney Summers, haha. She can make me read any genre. And I love that so. She creates the very best broken and flawed and perfect girls to read about. So much so that I can ignore the silly school things, haha. Well, for the most part. Some things were a bit too silly and stupid. But I loved the story too much to care much about it. But I will say that the dog scene was fully rude and evil. Hmph.

It took me years to finally read Cracked Up the Be. And it was so worth the wait. Though I do wish I had read it earlier too. The book was all kinds of rude but so great too. It came out over ten years ago. And it just came out again with a new cover. I love them both. And have been a fan of Courtney for years. Now only have one book left to read, then I'm all caught up on her stories. Rude. I want so many more books by her. She is such an awesome person and writer. If you have not read her books yet, then get reading.


Wednesday, February 19, 2020

Waiting on Wednesday #436

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.

BLOOD & HONEY (Serpent & Dove #2) 
BY SHELBY MAHURIN

Goodreads Description:

The hotly anticipated sequel to the New York Times and IndieBound bestseller Serpent & Dove—packed with even steamier romance and darker magic—is perfect for fans of Sarah J. Maas.

After narrowly escaping death at the hands of the Dames Blanches, Lou, Reid, Coco, and Ansel are on the run from coven, kingdom, and church—fugitives with nowhere to hide.

To elude the scores of witches and throngs of chasseurs at their heels, Lou and Reid need allies. Strong ones. But protection comes at a price, and the group is forced to embark on separate quests to build their forces. As Lou and Reid try to close the widening rift between them, the dastardly Morgane baits them in a lethal game of cat and mouse that threatens to destroy something worth more than any coven.


Hardcover, 528 pages
Expected publication: September 1st 2020 by HarperTeen
Pre-Order here and here

I'm nervous about this book. I did like Serpent & Dove a whole bunch. And I am pretty excited about this second book. Eee. But, well. The summary. Sigh. The widening rift between them. Yeah. That isn't really a story for me, sobs. Why can't the romance ever just be okay? Goddamn it. I am not pleased. Hmph :)
What are you waiting for on this bloody Wednesday?

Saturday, February 15, 2020

In My Mailbox #432

I failed in reading a book this week. Oops. I wanted to read. Just couldn't bring myself to do it. Too tired. And was too busy watching movies all week long, haha. I watched the new Netflix show Locke & Key. It was pretty good, but a bunch of things bothered me too. Hmph. Cannot wait for season two, though. And also watched a whole lot of good movies. And a bunch of bad ones too, ha. Rude. So anyway. I'm hoping to read a book this coming week. I know what to read. Just need to make myself start. So yeah. Only one blog post to share. Oops. This week I'm waiting on Battle Born :D I also only got two books. But they are gorgeous, eee. <3 I was at the hospital this week too, and decided to take a medicine break, which was okay. I know my stomach will get bad fast. Sigh. But I am hoping all my other health issues will get better without this heavy medicine. Fingers crossed. So yeah. A bit exhausted. But good. Hope you're all well :)



The Midnight Lie. Ahh! Thank you Rezanne for trading with me :D SO HAPPY to own this precious, eee.
Last of her Name. Paperback edition is out :D I adored this book a whole bunch last year. Eee. So good.


More Instagram photos here. <3

Wednesday, February 12, 2020

Waiting on Wednesday #435

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.

BATTLE BORN (Elementals #3) BY AMIE KAUFMAN

Goodreads Description:

Tensions are at an all-time high in the final book of this rip-roaring adventure series about siblings with magical shapeshifter powers, from New York Times bestselling author Amie Kaufman.

Though Anders and his friends have delayed a war between ice wolves and scorch dragons, their mission is far from over. With adults on both sides looking for them, they’ve sought refuge in Cloudhaven, a forbidden stronghold that could hold the key to saving their home.

Meanwhile, Holbard has been ravaged, and its citizens are reeling. Many have been forced into bleak camps outside the city, and food is running short. 

To rebuild Vallen and unite scorch dragons, ice wolves, and humans, Anders and Rayna must put everything on the line…before the damage done is beyond repair. But the price of peace may hit closer to home than they could’ve ever imagined.

Hardcover, 326 pages
Expected publication: June 2nd 2020 by HarperCollins
Pre-Order here and here

I am pretty excited about this third book :D Such a huge fan of Amie. And although I have only read book one, ack, and this is the third one, I still cannot wait. Because when this one comes out I can finally re-read the first one and read the next two books :D These middle grade ones looks so very gorgeous. Sigh.
What are you waiting for on this battle Wednesday?

Saturday, February 8, 2020

In My Mailbox #431

It's finally really light enough outside again that I can take pretty photos once more, eee. I have missed daylight so much. Sigh. I got a few books this week, all of which I adore. <3 I also managed to read two books, so yay for that. One good, one horrible, haha. Now taking a break for a few days to watch some movies. My body is still the worst. I hate my health. Trying to deal with it, as always. I'm doing my best. Anyway. A few new posts :) I shared my review of The Mystwick School of Musicraft. <3 This week I'm waiting on The June Boys :D And I shared my review of The Queen's Assassin. Ack. Too tired to write anything more. Oops. Hoping to at least read one book this coming week :) Hope you are all doing well.



Dragon Fire. I am so behind on reading books by Lisa. Ahh! But, well. At least I own them all, haha. Love.
Winter + Cinder.  Yesss. Final of the new paperbacks have arrived :D And oh my gosh, they are stunning.
Cracked Up to Be. Eee! I'm excited to finally make myself read this book by Courtney :D I so cannot wait.
The Conference of Birds. I know. I did not like the trilogy. Ha. But I bought book four. So needed five too.
Pop Figure. I really need to re-watch The Hunchback of Notre-Dame soon. Love this pop. Movie's so sad.


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Friday, February 7, 2020

Review: The Queen's Assassin by Melissa de la Cruz

This was a book that I had really hoped to love. I was so badly mistaken. Because it ended up being a book I almost hated for so long. Which makes me so sad, as this sounded so very good and looks gorgeous. But looks are not everything. Which is very true with this book. Sigh. Two stars, which even feels kind of me.

It sounds like an exciting story with a deadly assassin and them trying to save the world. Ha. It was so not this at all. It was a silly love story that didn't really make sense. I did not ship them. The book was full of drama. The assassin was a weak person with no focus, he who was supposed to be so deadly. Ugh. So not good.

I have so much I wish to share about this book. And I know I will most likely forget to mention most of it. Ha. But oh, I must share as much as I can. And this review will sadly not be positive at all. I will share a few good things, why it is not a one star. But yes. I have so much bad to share about this. Which hurts my heart, but yeah. This was not a good book. And I fully regret reading it. But I did it. And it is done with. Now you must all suffer with me. Ha. First I will say that the writing was a mess. First person and third person, I think. Both done so badly. Was hard to focus on this story. It was even harder to care for the characters. They were truly bland and boring and I just did not like them much. Sigh. This story could have been fully good. Instead it failed so horribly.

It began pretty good, though. The world seemed exciting with a little bit of magic included. It even seemed like I would like the main girl. But this passed fastly. This tells the story of Shadow and Caledon. He is the deadliest weapon in the kingdom, the Queen's assassin, age nineteen. Which was kind of laughable. He kills maybe a handful of people in this book. It happened so quickly. Instead he spends the entire time of this book being in love with Shadow and being such a whiny person. Both of them were. It was so stupid.

Anyway. Not going to write about that yet. It is so obvious from the first page that Shadow is the Queen's daughter, that she has lived with two women since she was a baby, seeing her mother a few times over the years. To keep her safe from the other three kingdoms, as some want her dead. Well, I thought it was beyond obvious, as it was written so badly, yet Cal never suspected it, ha. And it seems like there was a reveal at the end of the book. What. I'm confused. Like it was a big secret that we did not know. Hahaha.

Yeah. I tried to like Shadow and Cal. I really did. She run away from her aunts the day she was supposed to live with her mother again. Cal is in prison for a murder, although the Queen is supposed to have him escape to go to another place to find some kind of spy. Instead Shadow travels to free him, as she want him to teach her to be an assassin. Haha. She was so full of herself. She cut her hair and dressed as a boy to get to the prison. No one saw through her. Which was weird, as it was so not written good enough.

Then she is able to free him after just a couple of days in there. And it was very easy to get him out of the highest tower in this prison, without anyone seeing them. Yeah. Very believable. Then they are travelling together. And she is trying to control every single thing. Like she is the expert and he is the novice. Which was so not the case at all. He let her boss him around, after a few insults thrown both ways. It was just so silly and weird, to be honest. She was not good enough on this mission to be taking control of everything.

Then they arrive in the town where they are to infiltrate the royalty to look for the spy. Which of course go smoothly from the very beginning. They get a place to stay. With the woman of the house flirting with Cal at every moment. And Shadow getting jealous. The last half at least of this book was all about jealousy. And so much drama. It was ridiculous. And made me so angry and so upset. This was so not any kind of cute drama. They were both jealous and seemingly madly in love with each other without ever saying so.

Then they share a few kisses. And they are perfect together, oh my god. Can you believe it. Sigh. I am sorry. I just did not believe in this relationship at all. This book was not what I thought it would be at all. It was all about the almost romance and their drama. It was so bad. Then, spoilers. It is revealed at the end that she has to marry the King of another kingdom. And she does. And their hearts are breaking. Yet they sleep together night before the wedding. Months after, wedding is not consummated, and Cal is her lover.

I just could not with this book. It was so not good. And there is to be a second one. Uuugh. But of course, none of the plot was resolved in this story. The bad guy is still out there. And he is a demon, hundreds of years old. Of course. So this second book will likely be about her starting to have feelings for her husband too, to make it into a real love triangle, hahaha. Just you wait and see. I'm positive this will happen. Ugh. As if there weren't enough silly drama already. Sigh. I just could not deal with this book. It was not for me.

And now I have written way too much. Yet not enough at all. I would so not recommend this for anyone. Still giving it two stars, though. As I have read worse books. But yeah. The Queen's Assassin was not a good book. At all. And it hurts my heart that I had to suffer through it. Ha. But I made it. And I will not be reading book two. So curious to see other reviews, though. Huge thank you to PRH International #partner for sending me this gorgeous free ARC to read and review. I'm sorry I hated the book so much. Well, not.