Wednesday, January 16, 2019

Waiting on Wednesday #379

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.


Goodreads Description:

The highly awaited sequel to Heart of Iron, Soul of Stars is a thrilling sci-fi adventure packed with romance, shocking twists, and witty banter, perfect for fans of Six of Crows and Cinder.

Once, Ana was an orphaned space outlaw. Then she was the Empress of the Iron Kingdom. Now, thought dead by most of the galaxy after she escaped from the dark AI program called the HIVE, Ana is desperate for a way to save Di from the HIVE’s evil clutches and take back her kingdom.

Ana’s only option is to find Starbright, the one person who has hacked into the HIVE and lived to tell the tale. But when Ana’s desperation costs the crew of the Dossier a terrible price, Ana and her friends are sent spiraling through the most perilous reaches of the Iron Kingdom to stop the true arbiter of evil in her world: an ancient world-ending deity called the Great Dark.

Their journey will take the sharp-witted pilot, Jax, to the home he never wanted to return to, and the dangerous fate he left behind. And when Robb finds out who Jax really is, he must contend with his own feelings for the boy he barely knows, and whether he truly belongs with this group of outcasts.

When facing the worst odds, can Ana and her crew of misfits find a way to stop the Great Dark once and for all?

Hardcover, 400 pages
Expected publication: July 23rd 2019 by Balzer + Bray
Pre-Order here and here

Is it July yet? Because I NEED this most precious book, ahh :D It's going to be so very good. I adored Heart of Iron. And this second and final book will be so good. And gosh. The cover is so very pretty too. Eee. I love it so. I couldn't resist adding both the books together below, haha. I need this book in my life. Sigh. A peek at chapter one here, eee. <3 I'm very nervous about this, though, ack. I need my precious Di and Ana together and in love and ahh. Cannot wait to know everything, though, haha :) So very excited.
What are you waiting for on this starry Wednesday?

Tuesday, January 15, 2019

Review: Come Find Me by Megan Miranda

I will never not read a book by Megan. She is such an awesome person and author and I have loved all of her books so far. Have been so very excited for this newest one, and read it as soon as I was able to. And my gosh. This book was worth the wait. Once I began reading I simply could not stop. It was so good. Five stars.

There is so much going on in this book and I have no idea how to write it all down. Will not include any big spoilers, I will only share my feelings about it all. And gosh. I have a lot of those. This book was such a huge mystery. And I loved every moment of it. It was full of secrets and I loved that I had not guessed a single one, lol.

This book is told from two different point of views. Sixteen year old Kennedy, whom I adored so much. And seventeen year old Nolan. Whom was the cutest. These two characters were just so amazing and I loved them to pieces. Both written very well. And both point of views so good. It takes about a hundred pages for them to finally meet, how rude, haha. But I didn't mind, because those pages were needed to get to know them better. And they did sort of talk together a little before, without knowing who the other one was. But oh. When they finally do meet. Gosh. I shipped them beyond words. And reading about them becoming friends and getting to know each other was the very best. Especially loved their small romance. Not too big, but so very good.

And that is all I will say of the romance. It was small, but it was perfect. No drama. No jealousy. So good. And these two precious characters fits together perfectly. This book is about getting to know them both. Getting to know the tragic things that have happened in their families. They had different stories, but the same heartbreak. And getting to know everything about all of it ruined me. There are new things getting told through the whole book and that was just so well done. So many surprises. Good but also bad ones.

So very much heartbreak. I will not say too much about it, only the things that we get to know right away. Nolan lives with his parents, and he had an older brother. Whom disappeared two years ago, along with their dog, while they were in a park together. There was zero sign of him. And there has not been for two years. His parents grew a bit obsessed about wanting to search for other missing children too. And they sort of forgot about Nolan in the process. This precious boy needed way more love than what he got. Aw.

For Kennedy her family tragedy happened only half a year ago. It is not revealed what really happened for some time, only that is was bad, and she now lives with her uncle and not her mother and brother. It was easy to imagine what could have happened, as there was a murder. But it was also so complicated and full of secrets and I loved getting to know it all. It was beyond heartbreaking and sad, though, and my heart was always aching for Kennedy. I loved how she was able to live life, after everything. I adored her.

This book tells the story of Kennedy and Nolan. How they meet, and why. She is looking into space for her brother, searching for alien life. He is looking for ghosts, searching for his brother. They both end up getting a weird signal on their search things, and they end up speaking about it online. I liked how all of that happened. I liked learning about searching for the signal, trying to figure out what it all meant. A little bit supernatural. And it was awesome. I loved reading how everything fit together. So clever. So so good.

There is much going on in this book. Yet it was also not nearly long enough, and I wish there was more of these most precious characters. Sigh. I haven't mentioned much of the plot at all. But gosh, it was beyond amazing. There are new leads on what happened to Nolan's brother. It was cruel, the whole investigation. Hmph. But so interesting. I loved all the small clues. I loved all the reveals. Although the ending was very heartbreaking. Oh. But so good too, and written very well. This book ruined me. In all the best ways too.

I will not say more about this one. Only that Come Find Me was perfection. Full of mystery and suspense. Filled with surprises and some romance. Getting to read about Kennedy and Nolan spending all the time together was so so good. This book freaked me out. And I loved every moment of it. My heart was always breaking for both the characters. Yet there was hope too. And it was precious. I think you should all read this book. Because you will love it. Heartbreaking, but so very good. And very worth it. Megan is the best.

Sunday, January 13, 2019

Review: The Cerulean by Amy Ewing

I was so completely unsure about this book. I wanted to read it because of that stunning cover. Which I like so very much. And thought the summary seemed kind of interesting too, yet a little weird as well, haha. But I was excited to give this book a chance, hoping that I would love it. I didn't, but I enjoyed it a whole bunch.

Which I was sure I would not do, because I made the mistake of reading a goodreads review before I started. Which was all kinds of negative. I did not find the same issues with the book, though, and I'm thankful for that. Will be writing more about that soon. I'm giving this book three stars. I did not love it but I liked it so much.

This book is told from four different point of views, scattered all through the book. We first get to know Sera a whole lot, which I liked. I did not love this girl, but very much liked her and enjoyed getting to know her. Especially liked getting to know where she lived. Which was a planet above the sky, in the stars. Tethered to another planet below, where all regular humans lived. And Sera was very much not a human. On her planet everyone is female. There are no males, and there has never been any. Yet the women are still able to have children because of some kind of magic they have. And gosh, there is a lot of magic on this planet. And I liked that a whole bunch. I liked getting to know more about how everything worked and all they could do. It was interesting.

But what weirded me out about this planet was the romance. I liked that they fell in love with each other. I did not like that they got married in threes. Yeah. They fell in love as three people. I do suppose this could happen, but to me it was a little awkward and I found it weird to read about. Especially when these three women had a child. They become a purple mother, a green mother, a orange mother. And that's what this child calls them until she leaves home. It was so very weird, haha. I never got used to it. Was not for me.

But even so. I liked this planet. Oh. And I forgot. They all have bright silver skin and blue hair and eyes. I found that to be pretty interesting. Blue blood as well. And they have magic in it. And I liked learning new things about it all. Anyway. Sera. We got to know her a bunch, and I liked her a lot. I loved her best friend, Leela. They had such a special friendship. Until it was announced that Sera will be the one to make their planet finally move on in the stars. She has to jump, die, so that the others may leave. Yeah. What even.

It was all kinds of weird, haha, yet so interesting too. I liked reading about it. It hurt my heart how very heartbroken Sera and her mothers were about it. They were not okay. Neither was Leela. But everyone else did not care all that much. Sera did not want to die. But she listened to her people, to Mother Sun, their god, which was so not my thing, but yeah. And so she jumped. Except she did not die. And is now on the planet below, with the humans that live there. Sera gets captured right away, and put in a cage.

Which is when we meet two other point of views. The twins, Leo and Agnes. I did like them both. Leo the most, I think. Though he was kind of an idiot at first. And also just felt like too little, to be honest. I wanted him to be more amazing. Agnes is gay, in a world where it is not allowed to be, where they sort of live in the past, with women only getting married and not working and things like that. It was pretty depressing. Yet so interesting too. Their father was the very worst, yet he could have been more brutal as well. Sigh.

This book is about Sera trying to survive on the planet below her home. She cannot talk to anyone there. She understands their language, but they do not understand hers. Leo is the one that captures her. But he ends up changing over the book, wanting to stop impressing his father. There is a lot going on. Things with Agnes, which I enjoyed reading about. I found her interesting. I wanted more, sigh, but it was good too. They both want to save Sera, to help her get home. Which will be all kinds of complicated to try to do.

There was one thing that I loved about this book. And that was Leela. She is still on the planet in the stars believing that her best friend is dead. And knowing Sera's sacrifice did not work, their planet isn't leaving. The woman in charge of the people is doing suspicious things, and Leela works to figure it all out. I loved getting to know this girl. And I so wish she had more chapters. I loved getting to know everything she was doing and found it to be so very interesting to read about. There must be more of her in book two. I need.

There is so much going on in this book. And I did not write down most of it, haha. I found the plot to be exciting most of the time. And I always needed to know what would happen next. But it's also a three star for me, because I did not love this. I did not love the characters; I felt like I did not get to know them well enough. There was no romance in this book. And I disliked that. There was also too little action, I think, considering this book was five hundred pages long. I felt like more should have been happening. Hmph.

Did I think this book has some problems? Yes. Did I think it was racist and queer baiting? No. But I also think that everyone that reads books will feel differently about certain things. And that is very much okay. Although I did not think this book had those issues, others might, and that is okay too. Having different opinions on books is great. And this one was difficult. It was painful to read at times. Because of animal cruelty; keeping them locked up and such. It wasn't too horrible, but still a bit painful. But written well too.

My gosh. I have written way too much about this book. Sorry about that. But I had so much that I wanted to share. And I still have so much I want to share. I did not love this book. But I liked it so very much too. And because of that I could not stop writing about it, lol. Took me some time to start writing my review, as I was nervous, but gosh, the words did not stop. I do not think I will forget some parts of this book anytime soon. Though I do wish that it had all been perfect, haha. Wish there had been romance. Needed that so.

Which reminded me of something I had yet to share about this book. And that I need to share. Sera came from a planet of only women, no men. They all fell in love with each other. Yet she never felt attraction to any of the girls her age. And when she arrives on the planet below, she feels it for the first time for a man. Meaning she is not gay like everyone else on her planet. Was a bit weird, but okay. I did ship her and Leo a lot. Feel like it could happen in book two, but also unsure how it would work out. Hmph. I'm so nervous.

Although I did not love The Cerulean, I'm glad that I read it. Because it was a pretty stunning book and it was all kinds of interesting and sort of exciting too. I stayed up late to finish it, as I could not stop reading once I had started. Had to get to the end. But my god. That ending. It was so rude. Felt like the book and adventure was just beginning, haha. So many answers still needed. I will be reading book two. Wishing I could read it right away. This book was not perfect, but you should all read it anyway. It was entertaining.

Saturday, January 12, 2019

In My Mailbox #375

How is it already a new Saturday? Ahh. Rude. Time is moving way too fast, haha. And yet not nearly fast enough, because I need it to be late April, so I can get my spa bath back up again. Hmm. Anyway. This week have been pretty good. Though I am exhausted and feeling pretty much dead. Ugh. But I read two books, so I'm pleased with that. Starting another one tonight, so yay. And I do have lots of other reading planned for this month :) I'm excited. Also got some pretty mail this week, which I love a bunch. Newest Lord of the Rings pop figures are arriving, and they are so pretty, eee. I must do another movie re-watch shortly, haha. Some new blog posts this week too. I shared my review of Last of Her Name :D This week I'm waiting on The Last House Guest. <3 Then I shared my review of The Winter Sister :) I'm still behind on some things, but have managed to do a little catching up too. Hoping to be up for doing more soon :)

The Steel Prince Comics #3. Excited about reading them all soon. But do not have #4 pre-ordered.. sobs.
Come Find Me. Eee! Thank you so much for trading with me Kara :D Thrilled to own this. Reading soon.
Awakenings. Got this gorgeous thing for supporting a Kickstarter over a year ago :D It looks pretty good.
Dinosaur TY Plush. Look at this most adorable thing, haha. I simply had to buy it. It looks so precious :D
Pop Figures. Final Coraline :D Love. First Wreck It Ralph pop. <3 And Legolas! LotR! My most precious.

More Instagram photos here. <3

Thursday, January 10, 2019

Review: The Winter Sister by Megan Collins

While this is not usually a book for me, I had to give it a try when I was given the choice to read this on Netgalley by the publisher. Because of how Megan Miranda had loved it. As I have read her adult mystery books, and they were so very good. I had a hope that this one would be the same. It wasn't. Sigh. Not even close.

But it also was not all bad. And I was so unsure if I should give it three stars or two stars. But I'm going with two. As there was not a single part of this book that I loved. It was an interesting story, but I very much could have been without reading it. Which I'm a little depressed about, to be honest, haha. I wanted to love it so.

I was also thinking that this might have been a three star for me, considering I stayed up until past two am to finish it. But though I very much wanted to know the ending, it was never good for me. And that is why this book is a two star for me. Since even though I read it from start to finish, and I was not able to stop reading for hours, it wasn't because I was loving the story. It wasn't because it was exciting and scary and thrilling. Since it was none of those things. And I'm so so upset about that, lol. I was expecting a great mystery book. I did not get that. Well, a little bit, but not nearly enough. And I have so much to share about this book. As I had so many thoughts about it all while reading. The writing was sort of okay, but sadly never connected with the main character.

This book tells the story of thirty year old Sylvie. It begins by sharing what happened when she was only fourteen, when her sister did not come home, and it took three days to find her dead body. I did enjoy the beginning a lot, I liked knowing things that happened in the past. It was interesting. But then the present came. And it ruined the story a little, to be honest. Because I could not find it in me to care about Sylvie at all. She was so beyond boring. And had lived half her life doing things that did not make her happy. Sigh.

She had one friend, her roommate, Lauren. We get to see some weird written texts between them in the book. But I did not get their friendship at all, sadly. Especially not because of how Sylvie had lied to her since the moment she met her, about how and when her sister died. I did not think that she had enough reasons for doing that. So yeah. I never grew to care for Sylvie. Sure, I felt badly for her, for having lost her sister. And that they had never found out who killed her. And I understood her guilt about it. Maybe.

But that sadly did not make me care for Sylvie as a person. She feels guilt because of something she did the night her sister did not come home. And I got that. Sort of. But she never told anyone about it and that I did not get. Because it didn't seem like such a big thing. And the scene where she suddenly realizes she should not feel that way anymore was completely silly, to be honest. She spent half her life feeling guilty. But then one person tells her it was not her fault, and she stops right away? Yeah. It was all a little weird.

But anyway. This book is about Sylvie and her working to figure out more about how her sister died and who killed her. She has to return to her childhood home, as her mother has cancer. And that was a weird relationship. Her mother. She started drinking when Persephone died. And have been all kinds of horrible ever since. We get to learn their past, with how Sylvie worshipped her mom until the death of her sister. It was, well, beyond weird. Didn't get their relationship at all. So bad. And I disliked her mom beyond words.

I did like learning more about her dead sister, though. And who she had been as a teenager. But her life had not been easy, and that wasn't okay. Which made me dislike Sylvie even more, to be honest. Sigh. The dead sister had a boyfriend, Ben. And now with Sylvie being back in town, she runs into him all the time. And she believes he is the one that killed her sister. Yet she spends time with him, and I just found all of their scenes to be so awkward. Especially the small romance part. It was so so very bad. Shudders.

There is so much about this book that I did not like. There was barely any mystery at all. We learn who killed her sister at the very end, and the reveal was so very silly. No danger. No threats. Yeah. I wanted more from this book. I wanted it all to feel dangerous and scary. It never did. Because the whole book is spent inside of Sylvie's head. Being in the past, being with her mother, talking to her all the time. Ugh. It was too much focus on relationships, to be honest. Sure, some of it were interesting, but it was too much.

But I also did not completely hate this book. I disliked most of it, but I enjoyed reading it too. I wanted to know what would happen. But my gosh. It was way too slow. And nothing ever did happen. Ugh. There are some surprises that I had not seen coming, and I liked that. But they were too few and not that very interesting at all. The Winter Sister ended up not being a book for me. I would not read it again, but I'm still kind of glad that I tried reading it. Huge thank you to the publisher for letting me read the eARC early.

Wednesday, January 9, 2019

Waiting on Wednesday #378

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.


Goodreads Description:

From the acclaimed New York Times bestselling author of All the Missing Girls, a suspenseful new novel about an idyllic town in Maine dealing with the suspicious death of one of their own—and her best “summer” friend, who is trying to uncover the truth…before fingers point her way.

Littleport, Maine, has always felt like two separate towns: an ideal vacation enclave for the wealthy, whose summer homes line the coastline; and a simple harbor community for the year-round residents whose livelihoods rely on service to the visitors.

Typically, fierce friendships never develop between a local and a summer girl—but that’s just what happens with visitor Sadie Loman and Littleport resident Avery Greer. Each summer for almost a decade, the girls are inseparable—until Sadie is found dead. While the police rule the death a suicide, Avery can’t help but feel there are those in the community, including a local detective and Sadie’s brother, Parker, who blame her. Someone knows more than they’re saying, and Avery is intent on clearing her name, before the facts get twisted against her.

Another thrilling novel from the bestselling author of All the Missing Girls and The Perfect Stranger, Megan Miranda’s The Last House Guest is a smart, twisty read with a strong female protagonist determined to make her own way in the world.

Hardcover, 352 pages
Expected publication: June 18th 2019 by Simon Schuster
Pre-Order here and here

Eee. I am so very excited about this book :D I adore Megan beyond words. I love all her YA books. And I have read and enjoyed all of her adult books too. And I so love that she is still writing and publishing both, eee. This new adult one looks so very stunning. And sounds all kinds of awesome too. I so cannot wait to read this new mystery book. I'm sure that I will love it so. Cannot wait. Wishing it was June already, haha.
What are you waiting for on this suspicious Wednesday?

Tuesday, January 8, 2019

Review: Last of Her Name by Jessica Khoury

I have been a fan of Jessica for years. I adore her and her books have been amazing to me. I knew I must read Last of Her Name as soon as I possibly could. I have waited so long for it, and I am so thrilled that I can say the wait was worth it. Because this book was all kinds of amazing. Loved it so. It was pretty much perfect.

Giving it four stars, though, because of some small issues that I had. Will be sharing all about it, but it was not anything big. And for the most part I loved this book. And I'm so glad that I read it. Because it was adorable and pretty special and unique. Writing was great, which I loved. The story and world was so well done.

I loved that this book is an Anastasia retelling. Not that much like the animated movie that I love, haha, but I didn't mind. This book was still precious. And loved the ways I found it to be connected to the Anastasia story. As it was different. It's set far in the future and in space. Which was all kinds of awesome. I loved learning about this world, as there were new things to learn at all times. There are nine worlds in this story. All different, all with humans and humans that have adapted into something else. And I enjoyed that a whole lot, as it was interesting and I always wanted to know more about it. So very much wanted to see all of the nine places too, haha. They all seemed awesome. And I loved all of the space travel in this one. It was great and written so well.

This book is told from the point of view of seventeen year old Stacia. She's spent her whole life with her parents on their vineyard, spending time with her best friends. She has had a quiet and fun and normal life. Until now, when a spaceship arrives in her town. They are searching for her. And she doesn't know anything about it. Turns out she is the lost princess Anya, whom everyone thought was dead. She ends up escaping from those who wants to hurt her, but her best friend is not so lucky. She get captured. Ack.

And this book is about Stacia trying her very best to rescue her best friend, Clio. And also learning more about her past, though she is not ready to believe it. It is a book about Stacia growing closer to her other best friend, Pol. Learning about the past of all three of them, and of their friendship. I adored them tons. I loved that they were such great friends and I loved reading about it too. But oh gosh. The secret that Clio has. It pretty much killed me. So different. So rude. So very good. Such a surprise and so heartbreaking.

There is much going on in this book. I will not mention most of it. Only some things that I loved and one thing that I was a little disappointed about. But mostly I adored this book. I loved that Pol rescued Stacia and that they are on the run together. Though she is not very happy about that, ha. I loved all the places they went to, as all of them were so interesting. This book is filled with other characters too, and I liked getting to know them. There are also the prisms, small diamonds. Which had the very best story. Loved.

The reason for why this book is a four star for me is the romance. It was my favorite part of the book, and I felt like maybe it was done a little bit wrong. Because these two characters were obviously meant to be together. And they are the cutest together. But they spend pretty much the entire book not being a couple. Ugh. And they are being a bit silly about it. A bit jealousy, but no love triangle at all. I wanted them to talk about it. To finally get together. It happens, but it took some time, and that ruined my heart a bit, honestly.

Though the romance hurt me, it was also my most favorite. Because Pol was beyond adorable. And him and Stacia together was the very best thing. I loved learning new things about their past, as they spent their whole lives growing up together. I loved learning about when Pol fell in love with her. And I did love learning about how she felt for him, because that whole thing was beyond complicated. But also so good. But my gosh. I shipped them so. And I wish there had been more heat between them. More kisses. Sigh.

But despite that, I did love this book. And I did love the romance. I simply wish it had been a little more of it. That made me dislike parts of this book, which is why it's a four star for me. But pretty much everything else was awesome. Enjoyed reading about the villains in the story. And all the twists and surprises. Gosh. There were a lot of those, haha. I had peeked, aaack, but that did not make me love this book less, so I'm thankful for that. This book was rude. But so very good. I liked it so very much. You must all read this one.

The ending was good, but I wish it had been even longer too. It was bittersweet when it came to certain plot things. But was also so very good and I enjoyed it lots. Last of Her Name was such a stunning story. Filled with thrilling adventures and amazing characters. With such a lovely romance too. I found the story to be so good and I always wanted to know more. Now I wish that Jessica will write another book about all these characters, haha. As I want more of all of them. I so cannot wait to read more books by Jessica.

Saturday, January 5, 2019

In My Mailbox #374

This past week have been so busy. And so long too, haha. I'm a bit sad that Christmas is over, and that all the Christmas stuff has been packed away. Hmph. It was all so pretty. But it's also less messy now, so yay for that, haha. This week have been pretty good. Sadly done no reading at all. How very rude. As my health have been bad so far. But hoping it'll pass. It must. I wish for this year to be better. Hmph. But yes. Week was good despite that. And I got some stunning mail too. Eee. I love it all so much. I also have five new posts this week, eee. But no books read. Ahh. Starting Last of Her Name next, I just need the energy to read. And so far this new year have been shit for my health. Ugh. Hoping I can make myself read soon, despite that. Because I do want to read. So badly. But no energy, and that makes it a lot harder. Rude. I shared my review of Dreaming Dangerous :) I posted my Best Books of 2018, eee. <3 Shared my looking backward and moving forward post :) This week I'm waiting on The Cerulean :D And then took part in the blog tour for White Stag. <3 With an awesome Q&A with the author :D I'm a bit behind on some things but hoping to catch up in the coming days. And hoping I will finally start reading too, because I want that, and I need that. Also, I'm very much waiting for the sun and light to come back. So tired of all my dark photos. Ahh. But it is already getting lighter out, yay. Hope you are all having a great first week of a new year :D

Queen of Air and Darkness. Second regular hardcover edition, haha, and stunning UK paperback. Love.
The Cursed Sea. Finally got this second book :D I haven't read the first one yet, ack, but I will. Very soon.
Last of Her Name. EEE! Thank you so much for trading with me Monica :D I am so very happy about this.
Umbertouched Swag. Most gorgeous pre-order swag from Livia :D Thank you love. It is so very stunning.
Lauren DeStefano Swag. Ahh, I love this pre-order swag for The Cursed Sea :D It is so very pretty. Love.

More Instagram photos here. <3

Thursday, January 3, 2019

White Stag Blog Tour: Q&A

Today I'm taking part in the blog tour for White Stag by Kara Barbieri :D Huge thank you to the publisher, Wednesday Books, for letting me take part in this tour. So happy that I was able to read an eARC of this gorgeous thing last year. It was all kinds of awesome, and I enjoyed it a lot. See my four star review of it here. <3 Today I'm sharing a Q&A post with the author, Kara :D Thank you so much for answering all my questions lovely. You are awesome. I loved your answers the most. White Stag was all kinds of unique and exciting. You are all going to love this book. Which is out on January 8th. I so cannot wait to get my hardcover of it. If you love fantasy and romance and goblins, you must get this book too. You will love it.

Q&A with Kara Barbieri.

1. Do you have a favorite story about goblins that inspired you to write White Stag?

Kinda. My favorite ever folktale is East of the Sun, West of the Moon and while it technically is about trolls (though some tellings of it use goblins instead) it’s definitely been what sparked me originally to Northern Germanic mythology. Also, while it isn’t about goblins, the poem Der Erlkoneg obviously inspired the story as well.

2. What made you decide to have Janneke having already lived 100 years in the goblin world?

This is a pretty big FAQ that I get regarding White Stag and one that readers have multiple feelings about. Some wish I included the hundred-year backstory, some are cool with how it is, some just don’t like it, etc. Same with most choices in every book, I guess. But there is a reason that I started it the way I did.

Janneke’s story is above all things, learning to let go of her past and what that past has done to her—learning that it’s okay to feel pain over terrible things but that holding onto that pain stops you from truly living. She has a hundred years of survivors guilt she’s clung to and a hundred years to replay what happened to her over and over. Through the story she relearns how to view her life and the lives around her until she’s able to come to peace with what’s happened to her. It still was bad and she has every right to still feel bad or scared or anything regarding it; but she learns to let herself feel those feelings and then let them go.

Janneke’s story is very similar to my own in that way. Learning to recover after trauma.

Another reason I made this choice was because I wanted there to be an established relationship and rapport around Soren and Janneke already in place. They already have these bonds of trust in each other and are friends (despite Janneke’s protests as she lies to herself a lot before going through that journey of acceptance). I don’t think the story would work the same way if they’d just met. They have a shared history and that shared history is so crucial to the plot and themselves.

3. If you had the choice to live in the human world, or the goblin world, where would you live?

Most definitely the human world. Though I wouldn’t say the goblin world is all that bad. We see a lot of the bad bits because it’s from Janneke’s very biased POV but I still would rather live in the human world. Unless I was a goblin. Then it’s the goblin world for me.

The first book in a brutally stunning series where a young girl finds herself becoming more monster than human and must uncover dangerous truths about who she is and the place that has become her home.

As the last child in a family of daughters, seventeen-year-old Janneke was raised to be the male heir. While her sisters were becoming wives and mothers, she was taught to hunt, track, and fight. On the day her village was burned to the ground, Janneke—as the only survivor—was taken captive by the malicious Lydian and eventually sent to work for his nephew Soren.

Janneke’s survival in the court of merciless monsters has come at the cost of her connection to the human world. And when the Goblin King’s death ignites an ancient hunt for the next king, Soren senses an opportunity for her to finally fully accept the ways of the brutal Permafrost. But every action he takes to bring her deeper into his world only shows him that a little humanity isn’t bad—especially when it comes to those you care about.

Through every battle they survive, Janneke’s loyalty to Soren deepens. After dangerous truths are revealed, Janneke must choose between holding on or letting go of her last connections to a world she no longer belongs to. She must make the right choice to save the only thing keeping both worlds from crumbling.


Kara Barbieri is a writer living in the tiny town of Hayward, Wisconsin. An avid fantasy fan, she began writing White Stag at eighteen and posting it to Wattpad soon after under the name of ‘Pandean’. When she’s not writing, you can find her marathoning Buffy the Vampire Slayer, reviving gothic fashion, and jamming to synthpop.

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Wednesday, January 2, 2019

Waiting on Wednesday #377

"Waiting On" Wednesday is a weekly event, hosted by Breaking the Spine, that spotlights upcoming releases that we're eagerly anticipating.


Goodreads Description:

Sera has always felt as if she didn’t belong among her people, the Cerulean. She is curious about everything and can’t stop questioning her three mothers, her best friend, Leela, and even the High Priestess. Sera has longed for the day when the tether that connects her City Above the Sky to the earthly world below finally severs and sends the Cerulean to a new planet.

But when Sera is chosen as the sacrifice to break the tether, she doesn’t know what to feel. To save her City, Sera must throw herself from its edge and end her own life. But something goes wrong and she survives the fall, landing in a place called Kaolin. She has heard tales about the humans there, and soon learns that the dangers her mothers warned her of are real. If Sera has any hope to return to her City, she’ll have to find the magic within herself to survive.

Hardcover, 496 pages
Expected publication: January 29th 2019 by HarperTeen
Pre-Order here and here

I'm pretty curious and nervous about this book. Aaack. I have gotten an ARC of it via trading. <3 And I still have to read it. I think it looks so very gorgeous. And sounds like it could be so very good too. Eee. I'm so nervous, because I want to love it, but fear I will not. Crossing all my fingers, though, and reading soon :D
What are you waiting for on this falling Wednesday?

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

looking backward and moving forward

Happy New Year everyone :D Wishing you all the very best 2019. <3 In this post I wanted to write a little about how 2018 was for me. And what I wish for 2019. Will share a bit about the good and a bit about the bad. Not sharing too much, only wanted to write a little about how this past year have been for me. It has been so very hard. But also so so very good too. Sharing some of the good first. I read a whole lot of new books that I loved so very much. I got to trade for so many books which I needed to complete some of my collections, and I'm so very thankful for that. I ordered many signed and personalized books, and they are all so very precious to me. I have spoken to some authors online and that it very precious to me as well. I got so many books this past year. And tons of stunning swag too. And I'm so thankful and happy for all of it. I'm so very excited about this new year; about hopefully completing more collections and getting more new books. I cannot wait to fall in love with so many more bookish worlds. And bookish boys. Eee. Haha.

When it comes to personal things, the good is that I have spent so so much time with my family. And that meant even less time for reading, though, haha. But it's been good. I have a nephew that is almost nine years old now, and I adore him to pieces. I spend every day with my sister and my nephew. Last January my sister had a little girl too. And she has been so very precious this past year. I adore her tons. And this April there is a little boy coming too. Ahh. I will never have any free time left, haha. I'm never having kids myself, though, lol. But I love my sister's children. They are the best. So anyway. Family time have been great. And I have done a bunch of fun things in the past year too. No travelling, sadly. But staying home is good too. For almost half a year I have my outdoor spa bath up, in the summer, and I take my daily 40C two hour long baths. Those are the best parts of the summer, haha. Now waiting for late April to get back.

But yeah. My past year have had good things. But it's also been the most painful year for me. I thought the year before was hard, health wise. But this past year has been even worse. I have been sick since I was five, and have now four chronical life long diseases with a bunch of sideeffects too. I don't have the worst case of any of them, but having all four at the same time is the worst thing even so. And I'm doing my best to deal with it, but it's so hard. And this past year was especially so. I started the year with having tried a new medicine, which ended up giving me a small case of pneumonia. Which went away with some other medication. Then I tried a few months of a different medicine, a needle in my skin every two weeks. That had zero effect on me. My stomach was bad for so many months and I had so very little energy. And my joints were aching and it was the very worst. Then in the summer I finally made them give me the first medicine that I got for my stomach, ten years earlier, that they stopped giving me some years ago, when they started giving me a cheaper one instead, which stopped working the year before last. Ugh. Anyway. This new old medicine worked. It worked on my stomach right away. And it is still working. My stomach has not been this good in a few years now, and I'm so happy about that. But it is not without problems. I got fatigue right after I started my medicine. And it is not gotten any better. I am so very exhausted and tired all the time. And I have several other side effects too. Which is not good. But I'm unsure what to do, because it does work on my stomach. Ugh. So yeah. So far I shall just deal with it all. But it's hard. And so I'm behind on everything, and I have read less lately. Except for this past month. In December I read ten books. Which is the most I have read in one month for so very long. I even had the post blog posts in a month, most for more than a year. But then I got more medicine on the twentieth, and my fatigue got so much worse. Sigh. Hoping it will pass, but so far it has not. I still had the very best Christmas, though :D

Anyway. I guess I shared a little too much, haha. If you are still reading, sorry about that :D I just had the need to share a bit about my life here on my blog too. Despite having the worst health these days, I'm still blogging. And I will not stop that. I'm behind on things, but I'm catching up too, and I'll not stop that either. I tweet a lot, though I pretty much never get any replies, haha. I also post pictures on instagram too. And I do love doing all of this. I love reading, though it's hard sometimes. I'm behind on watching movies, since when I have worst days, I do not even have energy for that. How rude. But yes. This past year have been good too, not only bad. I have played tons of Pokemon Let's Go Pikachu this past week, and it has been so good. I still play Pokemon Go every single day, and it's the best, haha. I spend so much time with my family, which is small, but good. I still have my most precious cat, and although she is a little devil most of the time, ha, I love her the most. I try my best to stay positive, and most of the time I succeed. Sort of. But yes. I'm doing good. Exhausted, but good. I wish I was doing better, but I'm thankful I'm not doing worse.

For this coming year, 2019, I wish for my health to get better. I wish to win the lottery, even just a little bit, so I can have more room for my books, as I ran out of room ages ago. Oh. I wish to have enough money for a small vacation this year too. I wish to read a lot of amazing new books, and re-read some favorites. Wish to catch up to watching movies, as there are so many new ones I'm super excited to see. I wish to finish catching up to everything, once I feel well enough for it. I wish to start talking to more of you lovely bookish people and to more authors too, as I have felt a bit lonely this past year, as very many of those I talked to went away from twitter. I wish that 2019 will be the very best year for me. I know I will never stop being sick, but I wish for days where I will feel okay, where I will not hurt. Crossing all my fingers for all of that. Anyway. If you are still reading, sorry for sharing so much, haha, and thank you the most for listening to me. You are the very best. All the hugs. I hope 2019 will be perfect for all of you :D And for me too, lol.

My most liked Instagram posts of 2018.